Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I have so randomed-thoughts in my mind that I do not know how to begin.

Today, I realised I am not special.

Not unique, not exceptional, not remarkable.

Not gifted, not talented, not wanted.

Today, I don't feel belonged.

Today, I don't feel loved.

Today, I realised I am nobody.

I have always felt the opposite about myself; maybe partly due to the comfort zone I was in, the people I was around; who made me feel special, made me feel that I am someone. People who affirmed me, who let me know I can do great things.

Today, I thought and I realised, I am nothing. What I thought I was good at, there are always people out there who are better. I am alone; I lack the support I get from you guys back at home.

I am common.

I am just a speck in the world.

An insignificant speck.

13 comments:

Steven Chang said...

Cheer up, no matter what happen, the sun will still be shining brightly every morning!

"We ourselves often feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean but the ocean would be less because of that missing drop" -Mother Theresa-

Hey bro,

YOU ARE NOT AN INSIGNIFICANT SPECK!

oneway said...

Yes, you're not an insignificant speck! Everyone of us has a purpose to fulfill. God sent us those ppl to help us learn more than what we think is good. Learn from them.

pismayka said...

"I realised I am not special.
Not unique, not exceptional, not remarkable.
Not gifted, not talented, not wanted.
Today, I don't feel belonged.
Today, I don't feel loved.
Today, I realised I am nobody.
I am common.
I am just a speck in the world.
An insignificant speck."

i'm trying 2 sound as polite n nice as possible but i can't. i'm sorry if it's rude or harsh or wateva u call it..d best i can come up with is dat

"dat was one big piece of crap!
a pack of lies! zap out of it!"

you do make a huge difference in the lives of the people around you. whether you realise it or not. never doubt your worth friend.

you're precious:)

Anonymous said...

Dear clarence,
If God can send His only son to die on the cross FOR YOU, how worthless can you be? YOU were on His mind when He was on the cross.

katan said...

'Who Am I, that the Lord of all earth would care to know my name...' Casting Crowns

Bro, God says u are precious, fearfully and wonderfully made. If you want to argue otherwise, take it up with the BIG BOSS upstairs. Don't know about you, but I surely wouldn't dare to tell it to His face that He is wrong...:)

oneway said...

"God says u are precious, fearfully and wonderfully made." This has been Katan's quote wherever he goes nowadays :) haha...

keep up your good work. We are here to support u!

carmen said...

hei bro!! What makes you feel like that? You are God's creation and He made you in His very own image. No matter what others think of you and what others say about you, YOU ARE SPECIAL in your own ways!!! As for the support thingy.. Hey bro!! Though we're not physically there with you, our support are always with you!!! okay? No matter what, we're always backing you up!!! Cheer up!

timothy wong said...

hey bud.. i guess most people have reinforced that you are not a meaningless piece of nothing.. lol.. hope there are brighter days ahead.. i was talking to someone once who said maybe it's good for us to be humbled once in a while because it is in our realization of insignificance that we truly comprehend the enormity and majesty of jesus power. We all are insignificant specks, yet he chose to love us anyway.

pravin said...

i myself do feel like that sometimes.. feeling lonesome, lost and dead.. but u gota happy bro cuz many people wrote to u back to lend their shoulder and support u.. for me, at times, i cant fight the words to describe how i feel.. anyway bro.. uni life is stressful indeed.. nevertheless, its a learnin curve that can teach us what is life about.. not just havin fun and partying but about education and livin life itself..

kenwooi said...

Hey hey,

Don't feel that way. You're special in your own ways. You don't have to compare yourself with others because you are unique!

Take care man! =)

yohanand said...
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yohanand said...

yeah i guess ur right, u r insignificant... hahaha.....u need more of me in ur life den

pismayka said...

hey fren i just realised how harsh this comment was..sorry yea fren. sowee sowee sowee